After Ariella died, I needed something to do to fill my time this year. I'm not good when I have nothing to do...I get bored, restless, and annoying! But I needed to do something that was familiar to me, because I don't think I would have coped otherwise.
So I decided to go back to study. I've always enjoyed study and find that it comes relatively easy to me. Just one subject though - enough to keep my mind busy, but not so much that the workload stresses me. I'm learning Hebrew, which is something I've wanted to do for a number of years, but hadn't had the chance to do so.
I thought it would be easy to go to lectures. After all, the place was familiar, the lecturer was familiar ,and the people in the class were familiar. And surely if there's one thing I can do, even when things are in turmoil, it'd be study...right?
I can't focus on it during the week. I'm struggling to remember vocab and grammar rules. I'll know it for a week or two, and then I won't. Argh! Things that never used to be a problem now are. I guess I'm doing well enough, but I didn't expect it to be such a struggle. It's getting better though. Slowly but surely. Maybe I'll finally get the hang of it again...in time for the semester to end!!