About Me

I'm Larissa, and this blog is my journey into a blogging community I never wanted to be a part of: the baby-loss blogging community. Ariella Jade, my husband and I's first child, was stillborn on January 30 2013 at 39 weeks. Finding out her heart had stopped beating and then leaving the hospital a few days later without our baby girl are, without a doubt, the two hardest moments of my life so far. 

I have started this blog for a number of reasons:

Firstly, as a space to share my thoughts with friends and family. I won't be sharing everything (that's what a personal journal is for!), but my hope is that by reading this, they might better understand both my and my husband's journey through the grief that comes with the death of a child.

Secondly, I hope that by reading this blog that people will be better equipped to know how to help grieving parents. By sharing my experiences with people's actions and words (both positive and negative), my hope is that people will know what to do and what not to do when a friend of their's experiences the death of a child.

Finally, I hope that it may be of help to other bereaved parents. While I am new on this grief journey, I have found a number of organisations to be helpful, as well as some songs and quotes that I shall share along the way. I found comfort reading other baby-loss blogs, as it helped me know that I am not alone and that my emotions were normal. If just one mother or father finds a small amount of comfort from anything on this blog...that is why I am writing.

If you want to contact me privately, there are a couple of options:
Email: loveisdeeperstill AT gmail.com
Facebook: www.facebook.com/loveisdeeperstill


Sarah said...

Larissa, I had a question for you. I have a great opportunity to make hair accessories for children at a local hospice organization and I was wondering if I could make one inspired by and in honor of Ariella? Could you email me (sarahjrieke@gmail.com) and let me know? And I would just need to know 3 colors that remind you of your sweetie. Thank you so much. Also, no pressure I just wanted to see if you would like that idea.

Larissa said...

I would love that! Have sent you an email :)

Stephanie Erdman said...

I'm not sure where the best place to leave a general comment would be, so I chose here. I lost my precious first son September 7th at 37.5 weeks. We have no reason other than it must have been the Father's will for us. I have read every single post you've written since I got home from the hospital. I cannot tell you how much comfort I've found in your words. Thank you so much for being so candid, I have felt a lot less alone and almost believe that I will get through this. I just had to let you know what a blessing you've been. I have several questions (not sure if you ever answer more "personal" questions), but I am curious about a few things I have not seen you address, especially regarding getting pregnant again. Is there a place to pose questions that I've not seen? Just curious. Thanks again for your help in this unimaginable time.
Stephanie from North Carolina, USA

Larissa said...

Stephanie, I am so very sorry your precious boy died. It's a heartbreaking loss, and I wish I could give you a big hug. I'm grateful you came across my blog and that my writing has provided some comfort to you. You aren't alone in this, and although you may not be able to see it now...you will get through this. I promise. I can't even see it myself some days, but it's only been 9 months since my Ariella died and I can already see a brighter future than I could initially.

In terms of asking me questions (which I will attempt to answer!), I've just set up an email you could use to contact me (loveisdeeperstill AT gmail.com), or send me a message via Facebook (facebook.com/loveisdeeperstill).

Again, I am so sorry that you have experienced this.


louis said...

Perhaps my five minute illustrated stillbirth video, telling the sibling’s point-of-view might interest your community. it was made to celebrate my daughter's would-have-been 21st birthday.


It will be an extras feature on the dvd of RETURN TO ZERO.

Holly’s poem


Lucille Degenhardt said...

Hi Larissa,
Could you please contact me via email when you have a moment. You wrote a blog for Sands Australia last year, thank you. I would like to feature this blog in our next e-newsletter which I am sending out in 1-2 weeks. I was wondering if you could approve this and also send me a picture to use. Alternatively, if you would like to write an additional story update then that would be great.

I look forward to hearing from you,
Lucille Degenhardt
Communications Manager
Sands Australia

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