Long time no write!

It's been a while since I wrote something here. I haven't felt like I've had much to say and when I do, it's been for my monthly posts on Still Standing Magazine, Pregnancy After Loss Support (PALS) or the occasional post for Sands Australia. Since I posted here last we have been blessed to welcome another little girl into our family. Our sweet Seanna Hope is now 3 months old, born safely after another stressful pregnancy. I shared my pregnancy journey on PALS and you can read her birth story there too. I cannot put into words how healing her labour and birth were. Maybe one day I'll try.

With our little Seanna, photo by Karen Pfeiffer Photography

Life feels full these days. I never expected to be able to say that, considering our precious Ariella is always missing. When she died I searched out so many blogs; I needed to know my grief wasn't an isolated experience. I was in a place of devastating grief and I feel like most of my posts were written in that place. But I'm not there anymore, the son has starting shining again and as a result I've written less. I had found so many grief blogs but not as many that continued sharing life after the initial heavy grief had passed. I (subconsciously) thought my blog needed to be the same and stay grief focused. I'm not even sure how I put that expectation on myself but I want to break free of that. It IS possible for life to be good again. There is hope after child loss. There is joy after intense grief. And if my two littlies allow me time to write, this is what I hope to show!

(Thanks to the beautiful Franchesca Cox for my new blog design)