I miss

When I flipped the calender to August, two little words that I had written jumped out at me: return capsule. Back in January, we had hired a car capsule to use for six months, and it was due to be returned six months after Ariella's due date. Of course, we returned it much sooner than that, but the note of the original return date remained on the calender. And seeing it made my heart jump.

I miss the days when my heart wouldn't jump unexpectedly.

I miss the days when people wouldn't avoid me.

I miss feeling truly happy.

I miss having motivation to do things.

I miss holding babies.

I miss enjoying meeting new people.

I miss life before January 30; I miss Ariella.