Tick. Tick. Tick.
The minutes tick by and I'm aware that Seanna may wake at any moment. It's past midnight, we're all sick and I could certainly use the rest. Except I can't sleep.
Because it's January.
Aside from Levi's birthday, that oh so wonderful day at the start of the month, there's not much I like about this month. I mean, what is there to like about the month my daughter died in? I've never downloaded Timehop because I didn't want unexpected reminders; I didn't think I could handle it. But now Facebook shows memories in my newsfeed "because they care about me". Thanks for that Facebook. I can't say I wanted to be reminded of how excited people were to meet our baby...the baby they never actually did meet. Because she died. And every January that fact keeps me awake.
I hate you January.
I wish you'd let me sleep.
2 comments:
I just lost my second baby a few days ago on January 28th (my birthday). We lost our first baby last year (Feb 1st). Trying to pray everyday for God's strength n peace as we look to the future. God only knows how loved our children are. I'm sorry for the loss of your daughter. God Bless you
Ange, I only just saw this. I am so sorry for the loss of your two precious babies. My Ariella died on Jan 28th too (in 2013). What a hard date.
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